I have heard my opponents say about fighting me that in the fight, they just felt off. They couldn't explain what it was that was off but they just simply didn't feel like themselves. And though it was meant to discredit me, basically saying that I didn't do anything to them but rather they just had a bad day by happen chance, I always took it as the highest complement. You have enough opponents say the same thing and you realize that it is not a coincidence. They didn't feel like themselves in our fights because I was using my training and skill to throw off their timing. Luckily, though I have lost plenty, I have never had that happen to me.....until last night.
My training camp was the best training camp I have ever had. The weight cut, the easiest I have ever made. I felt the strongest I have ever felt both mentally and physically. I was excited to fight and was certain I was going to steamroll Dan. And then I went out there and just felt like I had no idea what I was doing. Dan beat me to the punch, pun intended, every time I tried to mount an offense. It is the worst feeling I have ever had in a fight. It was a feeling of helplessness.....and in front of the world.
I was talking with Rogan once about performing on stage and he said that there is no better feeling than making a room full of people laugh; I imagine it is a lot like winning a fight. And he said that bombing on stage is the worst feeling in the world – you feel like you are naked in front of everyone. I have never heard anyone more accurately describe how losing a fight feels. And normally, I know something I can change about my technique or my training so I focus on getting back into the gym and improving myself in that area. And that gives me solace. It gives me a goal to focus on so that I can become the best fighter I can be. This time, I am dumbstruck. I don't know what I could have done differently.
My goal was to become the Sengoku champion. I am essentially back at square one now. I am going to spend the week with my wife and little baby girl. After that, I don't know. I want to get in the ring as soon as possible so I can figure out whether I can still be one of the best fighters in the world or whether I have missed my chance. As such, I have asked Sengoku to bring me back right away ( November 7th) but obviously couldn't blame them if they don't. And if they do not, I will take time to reflect and decide whether this is a career that is worth all of the sacrifices that both I and my family make.
Nick “the goat” Thompson
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