Pulver: I'll stop when I'm dead

by Shaun Al-Shatti | source: mmafighting.com

"I'm on this journey. I'm trying to beat the demons inside of me. Trust me, nobody is more negative than me, about me. Nobody says a negative comment that I haven't already said to myself a thousand times, at least."

If anything, Pulver's self-awareness is striking, a side effect of spending so much time lost in thought. As middle age bears down on him, "Lil' Evil" shows no hesitation talking out his struggles. In fact, he often jumps at the occasion. His honesty is a rarity in a sport governed by testosterone, but as time goes on, too often for his liking is it mistaken for delusion. "People say, when are you going to stop? Well, I guess when I'm dead," Pulver asserts defiantly.

"When are you going to stop battling inside your mind? I don't know, when there's a magical switch and I can hit the button, and say, ‘Awwww,' and then I'm good. Maybe then I'll grow up, walk away, and not even be near this sport. If I could I'd be out gardening all day, or be a chef, or who knows. But this is the only thing I knew. I think it's really hard to get people to understand, ‘why do you do it, Jens?' I do it because when I say it's all I know, it's all I know to combat all the negatives that are inside me. It's the only thing I can do to battle what's inside of me. It's what gets me up everyday, it's what makes me fight myself. The ability to go out there and train and do what I've known since I was a kid. It's what got me through all the child abuse, all the dysfunction, all the negative.

"It's hard to explain to people out there who don't understand it," Pulver exhales with a mixture of reluctance and indifference. "But at the same token, I don't try to force them to understand it, because I don't understand the way that they think either."

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dudley site profile image  

8/31/12 4:14 PM by dudley


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8/31/12 4:06 PM by BadRed

Lil' Eagle FOREVER!!!!

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8/31/12 3:59 PM by FCFBlazer

Never seen that vid

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8/31/12 2:25 PM by Joshua J King

Lol @ lil' eagle

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8/31/12 2:16 PM by UGCTT_Fraser_Finlay

He won the first round and he looked good.That second round though... Kelly just turned it up and hit Pulver with one too many good shots. Still, he didn't look as if he was hurt when doin the post fight interview.Pulver said he was going back down to 135 which I think is a good move for him. He also said he wants to fight in the One FC 135lbs Grand Prix which I think would be awesome.War Lil Eagle!

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8/30/12 9:13 PM by Posty Magee

Check out the hottie at 3:14-3:16WAR JENS!!!

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8/29/12 3:27 PM by Jaybrone

One of the most down to earth and genuine dudes around. Not just in the MMA world but anywhere. If you haven't watched Driven its on Netflix and well worth the watch.

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8/29/12 2:00 PM by KingofBJJ

You got to know when to hold'em and know when to fold'em.

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8/29/12 12:33 PM by TLM378

I just laughed hysterically out loud reading this at work.

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8/29/12 10:41 AM by chaplinshouse

  best tuf (5) ever imo