Stephan Bonnar appeared on Monday's edition of The MMA Hour and discussed testing positive for Drostanolone after facing Anderson Silva at UFC 153 in October.
Bonnar said he took PEDs to aid recovery from a decade in the sport, and had already stopped taking them for a few weeks when he unexpectedly received a call to fight Anderson Silva. He was at 240 and had to make the 205 lighheavyweight limit, and circustance he argues no one would take steroids in.
He describesthe worst of it as being ostracized by Dana White and Lorenzo Fertitta, who have previously said Bonnar would be in the UFC family for life.
"Believe it or not, there are some therapeutic uses to some of the banned substances," said Bonnar. "Bottom line, I wanted to get my strength back. I was very weak. My body didn't feel good, my joints didn't feel good. That was my goal."
"I'm not a stupid person. Of course, I know I'm going to get tested. I got three weeks to train for the fight, and 35 pounds to lose, and you really think after that I'm going to take something that's detectable for a month? That makes no sense. Absolutely none."
"That was the hardest thing, too. You know, there's no way if I thought there was any possibility of it showing up, that I would have taken the fight. I finally get the opportunity I've been begging for in vain for so long. I thought I’d go out there and put on a better fight, but then stuff like this happens. It's like I came to his house and took a s--- on his carpet. It just kills me. I'm like, 'Come on, Dana, give me this opportunity,' and then I make him look like that. I’m really sorry."
"I feel the best thing for me to do is to respectfully piss off. It's not to sit there and go, 'Oh, come on Dana, give me another chance.' I f----- up and I'll put my tail between my legs and leave you guys alone for a while."
"That was really important to me, to be part of the UFC in ways other than fighting. That’s been hardest thing for me. I worked so hard over the years doing all those things to kind of give myself a home in the UFC outside of the actual fighting part of it, and I feel I ruined that."
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