Clint (op), peace buddy.
I fight it out mentally all the time, fighting now. My daughter died in 2010 (5yo, cancer), and my wife currently has terminal cancer. My wife might pull out another year, but I'm thinking that's it.
My head is a fucking mess. It is, all the time. Put the above situations with constant hospital trips, a massive life-,threatening surgery of my own. Shit, it's been tough. Add in covid, the closing of a daughter's school, care of said 6 year old daughter. I could go on, it's been 10 years of hell. Looking at my poor puppy now, broke his leg on Saturday. Glad he will be ok though.
In life, you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other. If you fuck up, don't ever make the same mistake. I drank a lot during the illnesses, probably to self medicate. Stopped booze 3 years ago, just made the decision to be better. Stopping booze is so much more important than people think. It physically wrecks you. I'm a big weed guy now, calms me down, assume I should be on meds, but a little weed to unwind helps.
Started Muay Thai, fucking love it. I don't really want to fight anyone my age though, as I suck. I'd love to fight like a whole hockey team of 10 year olds. I could beat the fuck out of a group like that. Always on the prowl for some kids or cats to kick.
Y'all have a good day, wherever you are. Give your loved ones a hug, you could lose anyone at any moment. That's why you gotta tell them you love them, make eye contact, just make sure people know you have their back.
Peace og, hope the day finds you well. Even you fucking democrats. I don't need to talk, just vent here sometimes and feel better after.
OG can be a good place, sucks that the political shit is ruining the place.