I never really understood depression but reading many posts on it here makes me feel good that i never felt that hopeless where ending my own life was an option.
The problem with depression is that most people live in denial or forget about how low they get.
Of course that lasts until their next episode or the one after and then BOOM they commit suicide.
I've seen posters here go from thinking about it (and posting about it) to never mentioning it again and nobody seems to give a fuck about following up with them. If they are happy or Ok a few weeks after then it practically never happpened.
The way I see it committing suicide is one of the most selfish acts a human can perform. You either leave a bunch of people sad/damaged forever or if you are the ultimate loaner you still contributed 0 to society. I believe we are put on this earth for a reason, when you cease to exist you cannot do good or affect peope positively, it's like you took took all your life and when the going got tough you quit.